Nostalgia

nos·tal·gia
a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

I am a person who often basks in feelings of nostalgia. It’s not that I dwell on the past per se, but I’ve been lucky enough to have many good times and good memories in my life. Certain songs like Blackhole Sun bring back happy memories of spending time with my oldest brother, certain smells trigger the comfort of my mother coming home from work. I love the warm and fuzzy feeling that comes with these memories, and reflecting on the happy memories. In fact, when I’m having a crappy day or my anxiety is inexplicably high, I often seek out these triggers and feel much better.

This week, for no real reason, my anxiety has been through the roof. It might have something to do with just being busy and kids being crazy (it has taken 3 days to finish this post), but it’s been driving me nuts. So my solution has been to sit down with a tea, and finish the sewing I have to do. It’s relaxing, calming, and makes me think of my grandmother. She had 8 kids and managed, so I try to channel her strength and grit whenever the weeks feel long.

Next stop, a 90s alternative play list. All should be right in the world after that.

I’ll try my best to write again soon!